Last day of the year.

Here i am, sitting in my aircon room with Jazz playing in the background after a nice shower.
Doing my manicure and pedicure, and applying my moisturisers
What can be better than all these lavish pampering for myself?
I laughed, self amused.

Those were the days when i always do the above things. Having so much control over my own priorities. Loving myself more than anything else. Have i lost it now?

After spending a week with my bf. i realise what i have been missing. - SPACE .
i wonder again. Y am i wasting so much of my youth and time trying so hard to be with him all the time, when I SHOULD be giving myself some time, doing things that i want to do and SHOULD do. This in another way also give him ample of time to do what he wants, then all will be balanced out.