Me me and me

How's married life? Everyone ask me that when i just gotten married
Till date, that question still exists
Now theres another trend of question "When do you want to have one?"
I hope i can have. Cuz i think i want to have. Let God decide

We are both married, see each other every nite
quarrel and make love every other nite.
He's busy with work most the time, and me with the laundry all the time.
My life = Family, my dog, friends and him
His Life = Work, Money Family and me.
That pretty much is what's going on in our life as the cycle repeats over and over again.

I very much wanted to start something new.
Be it opening an online store (iregardless if i make money or not!!)
At least i can tell people i Own a STORE!
Do my own crafting etc...
i will that that is pretty awesome.

But all i do was sit here and dream. But never realising it or even starting.
I WONDER WHY!!!

PS: MY DOG IS GETTING FRIENDLIER WITH OTHER DOGS!! way to go!

My likes about him
can be really loving
say i love you
say i miss you
hugs you, kiss you and hold your hand
patient

Dislike
Just snap when in bad mood
doesnt noe how to shift treat me with respect
always lost patience
always short tempered
Impatient


i know that you are stressed with work
but that should not stress our relationship
am i not being understanding? i guess i am
I am angry at you for always not making a point to be punctual
Den i realise you have to run all over the place just to pick me up
i could have just traveled some distance so that you can save on that

Car
I really want to have a car. You said i could before
and now you say that you do not want me to rely dependantly on the car and be like everyone else.
i cant imagine i have to walk long distance to take a bus to mrt to work and the same thing back.

How will life be when i am married?

Prawn balls

Meat Balls Recipes

serves 6 pple
80g white bread without crust, torn into pcs
100ml Milk
1tbsp ghee
120 finely chopped onion
1 and quarter tsp salt
400g minced beef
300g minced pork
3 large egg yolks
half tsp black pepper
quarter tsp ground allspice
2 tbsps ghee
40g plain flour
750g beef broth or chicken stock
125ml thickened cream

Method
-preheat oven 180 degreec
-Place bread slices and milk in a mixing bowl. Set aside
-In a frying pan heat 1 tbsp ghee and saute the onion and a pinch of salt until the onions are soft. -Remove from the heat and set aside.
-In the bowl containing bread and milk, add minced beef and pork, egg yolks, remaining salt, black pepper, all spice and onions. Beat on medium speed for 1 to 2 min or knead well for 10 min
weight meatball into 30g portions and shape into balls. Place on a greased baking sheet
-Bake in the oven for 20 min.
-Heat the remaining gee in the pan over low heat and add the flour.
-Whisk until lightly browned, approx 1 to 2 min. Gradualy add the beef or chicken stock and whisk until sauce begins to thicken.
-Add the cream and continue to cook unti lthe gravy reaches the desired consistency. Remove the meatballs from the oven, cover with the gravy and serve.

Tired

Just when you thought everything is so sweet and happy
The next thing you dun wana experience is to argue and get upset
And it just upsets me why the people i love enjoys taking me for granted like it is something that they so deserve and that i have got no value in their eyes or was it that i have simply been termed as 'HABIT' or a 'BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME, so i TRY to love you back'

It hurts real deep down under and i am tired...drained and exhausted with the rollercoaster rides of everyday's high and low..

What if

i just quit my day job and do my own craftings..

oh no.. the more i browse those sites.. the more i am inspired!!

But i wonder if i can do that. a full time crafty person.. whole day Draw,paint,color,cut,stick,surf.

i am v much a not in control kinda fella. Hmm i wonder if i am old enough to CONTROL........

BUT DAMN i still feel so inspired!!!!!!! HELP!!

Just feeling so inspired on hand made stuffs all the sudden...

Happy anniversary

It was quite a pleasant weekend. I am happy and feeling loved.
It just seem like we are both fully entertained by the shopping sales,
the dining - icecreams and the I T fair.

He spent loads of money on 2 of his Timberland shoes.. and almost bought the one above
that he so sadly have to part with when we leave the store.

We couldn't find sufficient reasons for him to buy three pairs. lol
But i promised to take a picture of this shoes so that he can stick it on the pillow and sleep with it, hopefully he can dream of himself wearing it out. hehe

Boy, Timberland shoes are so Comfy~~

My path

The crumbly road ahead.
How do i get through?
Do i climb it?
Or simply change my route?

The Lazare Diamond 5k .4 VS1 Heheheh!!!

Whahaha i got a .4 carat lazzaire diamond!!!!!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
thats my xmas pressie!!!!

i wonder

i duno how to change myself.
why?

THe Perfect WINE for the Perfect Dish

• Sauvignon Blanc – white or light fish, mild cheese, fruit
• Chardonnay – grilled chicken, salmon, shellfish, and grilled fish, anything with a cream sauce.
• Pinot Noir – light meats, chicken, grilled anything, salmon.
• Merlot – pasta, red meat, duck, smoked or grilled foods
• Zinfandel – tomato pasta dishes, pizza, pesto, red meats, chicken with heavy sauces
• Cabernet Sauvignon – red meats, especially a juicy barbequed steak, grilled and smoked foods.
• Syrah – red meats, spicy pizzas, herbed sauces on red meat, turkey
• Dry Rosé - salads, pasta salads, bbq chicken or fish, light spicy foods

MY HO CHIN MIN CITY TRIP Pictures!!

CLICK HERE FOR THE PICS!

Recap

my heart is heavy
God says i will find my true love 3 years later, in the year of the rabbit
i say i think i am tired of all these.

BUT

i want to rearrange my life again.
it is true, that only when you improve yourself for the better, that things will be better!
I am saying this with a zest within me, that is glowing.
Too many things i need to change,
Temperamental, bad habits.. demanding.. childish.. etc etc.
And all these i have to change.

Most of all, my temper.
i have to be willing to accept what others say or comment, be it they are harsh or not.
It is something they see about you that you did not realise at all.
Therefore i will learn to be more good natured.
More patient with others.

Work Hard, explore things, have the sense of curiosity and determination is something i lack too
i need to start to be more hard working. Really. need to be more hard working
i need to work hard for what i want to achieve. Not just sit there and wait for miracles to happen.
Yes this is true. Money never fall from the sky. It is everywhere . you just need to go to it and pluck it.

Loving myself. and being happy my body and myself. This is only then you know how to love people correctly.

Remember the times you spend time in your aromatherapy room at nite. moisturisers.. and facial cleansers etc.. these are what makes me happy. and i just need to continue doing it. Diet. Yes. SOmething to watch out for. Something that really needs to be done.

Never be lazy. Yes. Never. Always try to improve yourself the way he inspire you.

October 15

How how time flies!
i am really happy with where i am now. i got a new samsung Omnia, 16gb.. but now i think.. still tryin to get use to it. but i think i will enjoy the nicer graphic in iphone. :p

My Dearest just made me a pair of $600 Shades with degree. Lol since i cannot tolerate lenses. :p
So now me and him can walk by the Cherating or Redang beaches under the hot sun with our shades on!

I will post my shades once i got to wear it! ehhehe! so excited!




*question of the day:
Dad ask: Y is the house floor always so powdery?
Mom ans: blame that doggggg!!!! Sent it away!!! NAG NAG NAGNAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG~~~~~~~~~~

:)

Seriously, i have no idea what title to put at all.
I suppose a smile will say it all - that i am happy now.
Both Relationship and life and work.

See, no matter what it is best to live a fulfilling and entertained life.
I meet friends, buy stuffs, shopping.. Bbqing, download stuff, walk dog, run a little.. and leave just weekend for him and heh i work during the weekend with more cash in my pockets! its just fabulous isnt it. and my life is fully EnTERTained!!

Luv it. I wouldnt miss him much.
i wouldnt bug him much then
And he will be happy
cuz he will have time to miss me during the weekdays
I wouldnt lose myslef.
I no longer revolve msyelf around him

I am free of that twiney lovey kinda stuff.
i am beginning to find back my life, my friends, freedom and happiness
YEs being with him all the time is happy. But too much can get the whole balance toppled.
So now, a dash of love here and there kinda keep us happy together.

Guess what, we are going B i n t an this weekend with my friends!! and with him together!
I cant wait for weekend to come seriously!!!

My WA TRIPPY PICTURES are finally out!

my WA Trippy!

Go Karty! Ladie driver lol

May 31st 2008
Saturday went with sugarcane and my dear. Went to Some part of Johor and played the GO Karty at about 35 Ringgit for a bout 10-15min. It was so fantastic . So fast!~ im driving at a crazy speed ~ That wind wooshing at my face~! that big helmet's flipping upwards and felt like tipping off my head! My Turning around the bends was like OOooh and my DRIfT was like WHAhhhhh~ and my Smash was like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CRASSSSSHHH! into that stupid pile of tyres.. And i got this GloRious bruise (both legs pls) in my 1st lap on the course. dammit.. but it was GREAT FUNNNNNNNNNNNN :D

My Daughter

My Daughter

Boy you must be staring wide eyed. No I’m referring to my dog. Breathe eh.

She is a adopted 4 yr old white medium size jack Russell cum Boston terrier with nothing but a very black face and a white strip from the forehead all the way to its nose. She is always hyper, though I bet there is a problem with one of her hind legs but the vet insists that is not a big problem. You should have seen her sprint for that disc yourself. You couldn’t believe why a ‘slow’ me have such a ‘fast’ dog. We do have similarities though. She is as greedy as I am. She MUST have a share of everything I eat.. that includes ice creams.. Potato chips, half boiled eggs, medium rare sirloins or rib eye steaks. Yes even raw lettuce, carrots and cabbage during my salad days…

She have a share of my stubbornness. She does silly things that makes one laugh and feel guilty about it later. Name you some examples.

She taunts cats and in return got scratched on the butt by one.

Got chased by cats in return which ended up me having to carry her all the way home because that cat got real mad and followed us all the way.

She runs too fast at the park that she trips, stumble and roll a 100 m distance away and you can see the dust that trail after her glorious crash.

She stares at you when you share her silly stunts with people and she will grumble in disapproval. She makes funny noises when she lie on her favorite cushion that I made for her, flipping from side to side and sleeping on her back with her four legs in the air. She twitch and whine in her dreams and even barks in her sleep. Who can be as silly as her. Though a dog takes a load of commitment. I will never give up on her-Silly gurl.

30 May 2008

How fast days past, day by day, minute by minutes, seconds by seconds, they just don’t stop do they? In a blink of an eye, I am no longer young. My thoughts on getting married by the age of 25 is just merely a joke now that I look back. But I swear it wasn’t back then. I just see it in a total different perspective now. How one grows out of their nut heads too fast to realize and regret.

Did wonder what I have done over the years.. and where I am now.

Career wise, it was just a joke. I chose not to climb high when I got the chance. Not a good fella to work under pressure eh. If I were to be able to handle I might be a rich little girl earning tons per month working in a design co.. I might even be sitting upstairs, with my iphone and imac, clicking kewly on my one button mousy~, holding weekly Monday meetings sipping coffee. While my subordinates scurry under my commands or demands, whatever they say it might be. I won’t give a damn. Make them busy while I go shopping with my Gucci shades and tote, not forgetting that gorgeous pair of deadly stilettos at 10am.

Arhh rich life.. But a tiring one I swear. Such things come with a price. A dinner with someone is still PR work.. You have a outing with your people and that’s called Team Building.. argh..when will you ever get real time of your own to just dine with someone you’re completely comfortable and where you can pour out all your real feelings or even have a weekend getaway, holding hands strolling by the beach in some neighboring country where no one even know where the hell we come from.

Guess I’m just much more carefree and comfy staying low. One good boss is just all you need.

I think I am a real lucky girl. My life is always filled with the good times. The bad were just too insignificant to remember~. I thank the above for all the great karma I’m getting. Boy I must have been such a good Johnny fella in my past.

Love life hmm.. where can I start. Everything has it’s ups and downs. There is no such things as a couple without arguments. It is only with argument that both learn to understand each other better. Learn to accommodate each other’s needs and wants, try achieving things together, heading towards the same goal is what couples have to learn, in order to live in harmony in days to come.

I love him and he loves me too. We have great differences in both religion and character and personal goals in life. He wishes for more money therefore he puts nothing but career in the first place. Whilst a romantic me feed and thrives on his care, concern, understanding and love, wishing nothing more but a simple comfortable and carefree life, oblivious to the surroundings.

You might be asking if a career minded man like him even have any time for me. That is one thing I am most pleased with him. He squeezed all his free time to make his trip down to meet me even just for a hour or three. That is touching enough.

We both love each other’s jokes and humor one another often enough to keep our arguments low. Arguments about how one or another neglected each other’s needs or wants or even understanding is what made us realize and we try to change for the better in mind of making our partner happier. It is never a bad idea to sit down and talk it out. Shouting at each other just won’t work.

Family life, well like what the older generation said. When children grow up. They fly away. But if you are to take it the American way, they can’t be happier when their child moves away. I grew up, still with my wings clipped till the day I marry aka ‘Fly’. I cooked them meals and welcome them with hugs when they come home. Just when you realize there is no one to comfort you when you are down, then will you realize that they are the most supportive after all. Love them before you can no more.

Sometimes I do find my life too simple to believe it is true. Work five days a week, finish by half pass five. A stroll with my dog and prepare dinner for my parents is just what happens next.

Life just cannot be any simpler than this here for a 27 year old lad everyone might think.

“Where are all the Will power, Zest and Energy in me that can conquer the world?” A little voice squeaks within me.

Well I absolutely did think of that before. If I am to set up a store and all, run my own business… Maybe go for further studies and such. Well. I do not know where the ‘W.Z.E’ have gone. I think it was just never born inside me. I did thought of touring around the world though. That thought always inspires me to safe, safe, nothing more but safe.