:)

Seriously, i have no idea what title to put at all.
I suppose a smile will say it all - that i am happy now.
Both Relationship and life and work.

See, no matter what it is best to live a fulfilling and entertained life.
I meet friends, buy stuffs, shopping.. Bbqing, download stuff, walk dog, run a little.. and leave just weekend for him and heh i work during the weekend with more cash in my pockets! its just fabulous isnt it. and my life is fully EnTERTained!!

Luv it. I wouldnt miss him much.
i wouldnt bug him much then
And he will be happy
cuz he will have time to miss me during the weekdays
I wouldnt lose myslef.
I no longer revolve msyelf around him

I am free of that twiney lovey kinda stuff.
i am beginning to find back my life, my friends, freedom and happiness
YEs being with him all the time is happy. But too much can get the whole balance toppled.
So now, a dash of love here and there kinda keep us happy together.

Guess what, we are going B i n t an this weekend with my friends!! and with him together!
I cant wait for weekend to come seriously!!!

My WA TRIPPY PICTURES are finally out!

my WA Trippy!

Go Karty! Ladie driver lol

May 31st 2008
Saturday went with sugarcane and my dear. Went to Some part of Johor and played the GO Karty at about 35 Ringgit for a bout 10-15min. It was so fantastic . So fast!~ im driving at a crazy speed ~ That wind wooshing at my face~! that big helmet's flipping upwards and felt like tipping off my head! My Turning around the bends was like OOooh and my DRIfT was like WHAhhhhh~ and my Smash was like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH CRASSSSSHHH! into that stupid pile of tyres.. And i got this GloRious bruise (both legs pls) in my 1st lap on the course. dammit.. but it was GREAT FUNNNNNNNNNNNN :D

My Daughter

My Daughter

Boy you must be staring wide eyed. No I’m referring to my dog. Breathe eh.

She is a adopted 4 yr old white medium size jack Russell cum Boston terrier with nothing but a very black face and a white strip from the forehead all the way to its nose. She is always hyper, though I bet there is a problem with one of her hind legs but the vet insists that is not a big problem. You should have seen her sprint for that disc yourself. You couldn’t believe why a ‘slow’ me have such a ‘fast’ dog. We do have similarities though. She is as greedy as I am. She MUST have a share of everything I eat.. that includes ice creams.. Potato chips, half boiled eggs, medium rare sirloins or rib eye steaks. Yes even raw lettuce, carrots and cabbage during my salad days…

She have a share of my stubbornness. She does silly things that makes one laugh and feel guilty about it later. Name you some examples.

She taunts cats and in return got scratched on the butt by one.

Got chased by cats in return which ended up me having to carry her all the way home because that cat got real mad and followed us all the way.

She runs too fast at the park that she trips, stumble and roll a 100 m distance away and you can see the dust that trail after her glorious crash.

She stares at you when you share her silly stunts with people and she will grumble in disapproval. She makes funny noises when she lie on her favorite cushion that I made for her, flipping from side to side and sleeping on her back with her four legs in the air. She twitch and whine in her dreams and even barks in her sleep. Who can be as silly as her. Though a dog takes a load of commitment. I will never give up on her-Silly gurl.

30 May 2008

How fast days past, day by day, minute by minutes, seconds by seconds, they just don’t stop do they? In a blink of an eye, I am no longer young. My thoughts on getting married by the age of 25 is just merely a joke now that I look back. But I swear it wasn’t back then. I just see it in a total different perspective now. How one grows out of their nut heads too fast to realize and regret.

Did wonder what I have done over the years.. and where I am now.

Career wise, it was just a joke. I chose not to climb high when I got the chance. Not a good fella to work under pressure eh. If I were to be able to handle I might be a rich little girl earning tons per month working in a design co.. I might even be sitting upstairs, with my iphone and imac, clicking kewly on my one button mousy~, holding weekly Monday meetings sipping coffee. While my subordinates scurry under my commands or demands, whatever they say it might be. I won’t give a damn. Make them busy while I go shopping with my Gucci shades and tote, not forgetting that gorgeous pair of deadly stilettos at 10am.

Arhh rich life.. But a tiring one I swear. Such things come with a price. A dinner with someone is still PR work.. You have a outing with your people and that’s called Team Building.. argh..when will you ever get real time of your own to just dine with someone you’re completely comfortable and where you can pour out all your real feelings or even have a weekend getaway, holding hands strolling by the beach in some neighboring country where no one even know where the hell we come from.

Guess I’m just much more carefree and comfy staying low. One good boss is just all you need.

I think I am a real lucky girl. My life is always filled with the good times. The bad were just too insignificant to remember~. I thank the above for all the great karma I’m getting. Boy I must have been such a good Johnny fella in my past.

Love life hmm.. where can I start. Everything has it’s ups and downs. There is no such things as a couple without arguments. It is only with argument that both learn to understand each other better. Learn to accommodate each other’s needs and wants, try achieving things together, heading towards the same goal is what couples have to learn, in order to live in harmony in days to come.

I love him and he loves me too. We have great differences in both religion and character and personal goals in life. He wishes for more money therefore he puts nothing but career in the first place. Whilst a romantic me feed and thrives on his care, concern, understanding and love, wishing nothing more but a simple comfortable and carefree life, oblivious to the surroundings.

You might be asking if a career minded man like him even have any time for me. That is one thing I am most pleased with him. He squeezed all his free time to make his trip down to meet me even just for a hour or three. That is touching enough.

We both love each other’s jokes and humor one another often enough to keep our arguments low. Arguments about how one or another neglected each other’s needs or wants or even understanding is what made us realize and we try to change for the better in mind of making our partner happier. It is never a bad idea to sit down and talk it out. Shouting at each other just won’t work.

Family life, well like what the older generation said. When children grow up. They fly away. But if you are to take it the American way, they can’t be happier when their child moves away. I grew up, still with my wings clipped till the day I marry aka ‘Fly’. I cooked them meals and welcome them with hugs when they come home. Just when you realize there is no one to comfort you when you are down, then will you realize that they are the most supportive after all. Love them before you can no more.

Sometimes I do find my life too simple to believe it is true. Work five days a week, finish by half pass five. A stroll with my dog and prepare dinner for my parents is just what happens next.

Life just cannot be any simpler than this here for a 27 year old lad everyone might think.

“Where are all the Will power, Zest and Energy in me that can conquer the world?” A little voice squeaks within me.

Well I absolutely did think of that before. If I am to set up a store and all, run my own business… Maybe go for further studies and such. Well. I do not know where the ‘W.Z.E’ have gone. I think it was just never born inside me. I did thought of touring around the world though. That thought always inspires me to safe, safe, nothing more but safe.

Happi Happy

I just refreshed my lap top. Was pretty Impress with this Dell hehehe Small, light weighted as compared to my lousy previous. hahah. No longer need stuff that external wireless into my oldie all the time. Now its really just PLUG and USE! wehehehe! luv it luv it. The touch pads were so comfy too! esp the left click and right click button. Soft and Sweet~

Today i multi task ,

Wactch me work those Thang!

Mr Pinky Crocs

Was walking in the mRt tunnel when i came across this interesting guy, with the PINKY CrocS!

my 24th bday cake..

Somehow its getting cheaper and cheaper.. smaller and smaller....... happen to get my bluetooth working again.. so loading last nov's pic. hahah I love to watch my SPIDer MaN power Up the Candle!

adv theory test

going to have my exam tomoro.
Pray hard hard. i havent even finish going through the book yet!!!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
AAAAmmmmeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn OOMIiituoooofuoooo...HMMMMM

review

how life changes
how it twines and blends in with everyone else's life

No i do not enjoy brooding
No i do not enjoy listening to the same naggy stuffs
stop asking to to go back to where i left
i am not and Never heading there.
I never go back on my words.
Once its set its set.
Dun bother to ask me again.
i hate it.

Yes you can tell. im bothered.
i do not understand why i am

why should i be bothered?
i shouldnt be.

i use to know what i want
and get what i want

why am i not getting what i want and deserved?
am i getting it but not contented?
or am i really not getting it?

Thoughts....

It feels strange. stranger than and stranger...

No longer is the fella i used to know for years
wheres the cutie pie i once lurve?
no longer is.
Guess the environment pollutes it. hahaha

No longer feels the same.
Ms tension sits in between our conversations when we are side by side
She seems to enjoy being the big fat lady that stares at me with mean small eyes while i converse...making me feel all uneasy.i wish i was home. Conversations no longer feel the same... Hate her for that.

Funny

i dun understand y i feeling happy today.
celebrate independance?
hmm..

saw him on msn. but didnt bother to write him anything.
lets just leave him at that.

HOoooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOh!
Tomoro another conference web meeting.
HAPPY, excited and nervous.

hmmm.. cant wait to end and extend contract!!
in fact i have so much to say! i am so happy with my salary!!! im geting a month bonus! wooohoo! MY boss is my SUNSHINE!!

I LOVE MYSELF n my LIFE!

ALL SMILES~

i had dinner over my sis house. It was sushi day
surprise surprise ended up its her bday..
for the second time consequtively, its me who buy her yet another same old yummy fruit cake
i aint surprised...

CHomp CHomp chomp. i gobbled my sushi with zest.
'Stole' her Chocolate factory dvd and gave her in return another bar of kinda beunos.

BF said " i think i will go home tonite"
I said " All right!" happily and open the car door.

i suppose he was taken aback that i didnt seem to mind him leaving me sleeping alone in my bed when all the other time i will give him my usual pity cat eyes pleading him to accompany me for the night.

Well i suppose like any other man.. it twitches them the other way round.
he cant bare to leave me.
Didnt drive off until he saw me at take my lift.

Hmm...

Why when you treat guys nice.. they take it for granted.
and just when you decide to lift your hands off them
they came clingy.

They enjoy getting things they felt they are losing touch with.
well my dear.
Watch out and better Keep up with my pace!


PS: i WALKED HOME FROM the JP interchange ahh.. LEG 'EGG!'!!

The Depressing Cycle

24^th Mar 2008

I have lost myself in his world.

He disappoints me most of the time

I hate to say that

But he did

I am happy with every little thing he does for me

Am I asking for too little or too much?

Because I am upset deep within.

The way he treats me

Do I deserve ?

A conflict of interest and contradiction

Are we meant to be together

I wonder.

Or should he look for someone independent

Not a dependant me.

Or is it time I change, to become someone stronger and more independent.

I thought I was…until I met him

She said I have lost myself

Yes I thought I have lost my mind.

She said I used to be colorful

Yes now I am just a piece of grey

Something so jaded

Somekind dulled

Someone no one noticed

What is happening to me?

What should I do?

Time to move on

Or time to change

I do not know which way to go

Yes he is busy

so overloaded with work

Yes I am free

So much of nothing to do

I ask for his dedication

He asked for my understanding

I ask for quality time together

He pleas he have more time

Oohh~

We are so headed for the cliff!

I thought of writing you a picture book

And it states

I AM:

DEPENDANT and with a pooch

I AM:

FILLED of LOVE, CARE & CONCERN

I GLOW:

With CONSTANT SHOWER of TENDER LOVING CARE

I NEED:

TIME, CONSOLATION, SUPPORT, LOVE not forgetting SECURITY

You set butterflies in my stomach when you bring me for movies almost everytime we met. Didn’t know that was ‘Partor’ period.

I was elated when you surprised me with MORTON Steakhouse on our very first and only anniversary.

I do not mind my feet blown double size (due to that poisonous mosquito sting)in China which have me ended up washing your laundry in the hotel. I am happy to be with you- wherever you are.

I was so happy you celebrate my birthday in Thailand.

I feel so comforted when you hold up my hand up to smell and kiss when we are in the car. I felt like the luckiest women in the whole world.

My heart melts when you tell me you wanted to buy me a ring but couldn’t afford it months back

But somehow things changed…

ME: A walk with me at the park with my dog please?

YOU: I am sleepy

ME: Can’t you help me with my stuffs?

YOU: You should have requested so.

ME: …I am upset with you…

YOU: Ok we reached. Are you getting out of the car?

ME: Hello we are having a problem here *waves*

YOU: * SILENCE * (“ what do you expect me to say? You have your point”)

ME: Wake up dear

YOU: Didn’t you hear the alarm went off earlier? I am late.

ME: I am free today

YOU: Help me with my expense report la~

ME: I am very bored at home…

YOU: Help me check my stocks la~

ME: Where are you bringing me today?

YOU: Where do you want to go? (“ Because I am too tired to think”)

I have nothing else to say.

P.S I still love you…

ARGHhhh save me from this misery...

y am i living life so monotonous..........
everyday finish work,
go home
walk my dog
watch tv
prepare dinner for 3
sweep the floor
watch tv
sleep

Y SO SIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but some other pple dun seem to mind doing those stuffs repeatedly everyday
and think that it is actually an enjoyment?
it is really funny to think of that... How can they possibly think of THAT as FUN or even ENJOYMENT

Am i asking for too much??

It is funnyyyy i just dun get it...
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SOmeone said.. im someone who constantly need companion..
but dun like to be tied down..

Seriously i dun think a relationship can work well if one is too possesive of the other.
It just creates an imbalance and wreck the whole relationhip.

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She ask me y not get married and have kids. den have a fuller life.
i was thinking.. after my breakup with my ex.. i no longer have a positive thinking of marriage
i no longer want to think of marriage unless a bf propose.

Kids.. im afriad i might treat my kid as a dog.. command the child this and that.. like what i did to my nephew last time. and she complain to his mother. JUST THAT ONE TIME ONLY ok....
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My business trip

on Business SQ is KEWL....
to think i cannot even find where they kept the TV and the dinner table (psst.. its tucked neatly on the comfy arm seats and gawd i didnt even noe! but on the way back. that fella beside me was as dumbo as moi! lol. ops)

Business trip Was infact pretty fun!
Work, dine, Massage, Booze, Massage, work, dine & Booze
Any life better than this?

LOL
I didnt even have time to shop for gifts for others.
IM SORRY WC
Its got to be ENERTAIN ENTErTAIN.. and entertain

the koreans were powerful..
two shots of Bomb Drop.. im gone (Soju + Liqour + beer)
oh my god.. it taste good, but deadly
I enjoyed that night though, everyone had their fun

At the end of the whole event,
i got praised.
i just hope i got a raise at the end. lol

updates

ABT MY DOG
EHH.. ah girl's legs got better,
we suspect her thinking is ---- NO RAW HIDE TO LICK = LICK MY OWN toes
SO her toes fur all gone.
SO kana wear that funnel
SO dun dare to come down the staircase in my house
SO first time my dad laugh at her

BUT SHE IS OK NOW cuz got 14" RAW HIDE TO LICK TO DEATH


ABT ME
In another night's time, ill be flying to Thailand for my Conference meeting
The agenda? Causes one to SIgh..
ITS JAMMED PACKED with all the talks..
Duno if i should be happy or sad.
But one thing for sure
IM THRILLED TO TAKE THAT BUSINESS CLASS flight
im Collecting my Kris Flyer for the first time
and IM getting my MARRIOTT reWARDS FOR THE FIRST TIME TOO!!!!
hahaha ok

ABT VDAY
Gawd.. TOday i fininsh work at 8. Took a cab home. Charges? bill it to company Teehehee
I tot i will be seeing him tonite.
too bad. Im wrong.
Hes not meeting me..
so Tomoro will be the last day he gonna see me for the next six days.
wonder if his even gona get me anything
Im not geting him anything
cuz im his present every day and nite .LOL

im gona close off. its 12am... this piana jazz is driving me to bed a little....... my luggage is not yet packed... i got some clothes laid on the bed though......... gota sort it out a little........
Though i can work from home tomorrow.. i think i rather not...
TOO StREESS cuz network to office is god damn slow................
can dieeeeeeeeee just to read one mail.........

aiya.. i wonder if i should bring my personal laptop too hehehe. else cannot msn.. BOOHOOO~

my poor pooch

Today's a Sat. i planned to go blading with my friend.
In the end i didnt.
My dear girl's leg is hurt, and with her constant licking of her poor paws, its never gonna get well.
So this is what i did. Hopefully it will be better. But i noe she hates what i did to her cuz i even Funneled' her head so that she cant reach.

I think im going to get her some cutie shoes . hehehe
I cant wait to take a video of her with her shoes on. Im sure shes gonna be hoping around and look pretty awkward. haha.

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Today is spring clean. i cleared out a drawer for my bf's clothes. i wash them, fold them up and keep them. i love being neat. i just love neat things. and i fight to keep neat.

im sitting here with my clothes half folded, my laundry half washed.. table half tidied. i noe these work cant last me till evening.. im too fast for such shits. HAHAHA!!!

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Ahh.. love lounge musiz soooooooooooo much. really made me feel very much BETTER!!!!

aight. im coming back in a jiff. Let me get a little more stuff done now!
pewwwwwwwwwww!!!

*vanish*...................

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25 January 2008

Sun rises.

“You fall asleep yesterday?” I texted.

“Yes dear, sorry I didn’t pick up. Sorry I love you” he replied

“Nevermind, its ok…” I texted

“Thank you, I love you” he replied

“I miss you” I texted again

“I miss you too” he replied

And we stop at there…

4:12pm

God I cant wait to get out of the office,

Yet im paranoid of going back home.

What can I do at home?

It is lonely at home.

It is so quiet at home.

If only my dog speaks and not let me talk to her like as if im a complete loser.

How to kill time?

IM AFRAID of WATCHING TV

Ive been watching tv for the whole night for the past four days!

Its driving me crazy!

No one is available to dial. Forget about my female friends.. Sure to be working and having her own relationship problem.

My good friend? His prolly still cutting vege or heating up the pan.

My bf? Most likely he cant make it to meet me either…

GAWD! Sat ill be cycling with my collegue and prolly meet him by 8 or 9 to eat and ZZ and Sunday I will have to work full day..

Y cant I spend my weekends with him!

4:17pm

Aight. Im outta here.

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24 January 2008

Today has been the 3rd night I sleep alone on my bed. The feeling of finally having a tiny bed all to myself is - good. I smiled contentedly to myself, sweeping my bed with my ‘garbage angle’ moves while my dog stared at me with raised brows.

Her eyes revealed my feelings from deep within - Bored, lonely and i cant help but repeat myself, bored.

I fumbled around my bed, searching for the slightest whiff of his existence. But to no avail. I lay on my bed, listening to the whooming sound of my fan, as though the flannels of the fan is about to fly out like a blades of a blending machine. That might be a way to die, but I’m not letting that happen to me.

Arhh..Cant help but start imagining. Yes I have nothing better to do.

Where is my pillow where I can lie on his arm the whole night?

Where is my big bolster that I can hug, snuggle and smell?

Where is my lullaby snore that drift me to sleep every other nights?

To think of it.. why never I realize that my fan is making such loud noise whenever he sleep over? Haha

“I miss you” I texted

Incoming message “I miss you too”

“I miss you” I texted again

Incoming message “im sorry dear, I will call you”

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