Wednesday, February 13, 2008

updates

ABT MY DOG
EHH.. ah girl's legs got better,
we suspect her thinking is ---- NO RAW HIDE TO LICK = LICK MY OWN toes
SO her toes fur all gone.
SO kana wear that funnel
SO dun dare to come down the staircase in my house
SO first time my dad laugh at her

BUT SHE IS OK NOW cuz got 14" RAW HIDE TO LICK TO DEATH


ABT ME
In another night's time, ill be flying to Thailand for my Conference meeting
The agenda? Causes one to SIgh..
ITS JAMMED PACKED with all the talks..
Duno if i should be happy or sad.
But one thing for sure
IM THRILLED TO TAKE THAT BUSINESS CLASS flight
im Collecting my Kris Flyer for the first time
and IM getting my MARRIOTT reWARDS FOR THE FIRST TIME TOO!!!!
hahaha ok

ABT VDAY
Gawd.. TOday i fininsh work at 8. Took a cab home. Charges? bill it to company Teehehee
I tot i will be seeing him tonite.
too bad. Im wrong.
Hes not meeting me..
so Tomoro will be the last day he gonna see me for the next six days.
wonder if his even gona get me anything
Im not geting him anything
cuz im his present every day and nite .LOL

im gona close off. its 12am... this piana jazz is driving me to bed a little....... my luggage is not yet packed... i got some clothes laid on the bed though......... gota sort it out a little........
Though i can work from home tomorrow.. i think i rather not...
TOO StREESS cuz network to office is god damn slow................
can dieeeeeeeeee just to read one mail.........

aiya.. i wonder if i should bring my personal laptop too hehehe. else cannot msn.. BOOHOOO~

Friday, February 1, 2008

my poor pooch


Today's a Sat. i planned to go blading with my friend.
In the end i didnt.
My dear girl's leg is hurt, and with her constant licking of her poor paws, its never gonna get well.
So this is what i did. Hopefully it will be better. But i noe she hates what i did to her cuz i even Funneled' her head so that she cant reach.

I think im going to get her some cutie shoes . hehehe
I cant wait to take a video of her with her shoes on. Im sure shes gonna be hoping around and look pretty awkward. haha.

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Today is spring clean. i cleared out a drawer for my bf's clothes. i wash them, fold them up and keep them. i love being neat. i just love neat things. and i fight to keep neat.

im sitting here with my clothes half folded, my laundry half washed.. table half tidied. i noe these work cant last me till evening.. im too fast for such shits. HAHAHA!!!

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Ahh.. love lounge musiz soooooooooooo much. really made me feel very much BETTER!!!!

aight. im coming back in a jiff. Let me get a little more stuff done now!
pewwwwwwwwwww!!!

*vanish*...................

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Sunday, January 27, 2008

UNtitled 4

25 January 2008

Sun rises.

“You fall asleep yesterday?” I texted.

“Yes dear, sorry I didn’t pick up. Sorry I love you” he replied

“Nevermind, its ok…” I texted

“Thank you, I love you” he replied

“I miss you” I texted again

“I miss you too” he replied

And we stop at there…

4:12pm

God I cant wait to get out of the office,

Yet im paranoid of going back home.

What can I do at home?

It is lonely at home.

It is so quiet at home.

If only my dog speaks and not let me talk to her like as if im a complete loser.

How to kill time?

IM AFRAID of WATCHING TV

Ive been watching tv for the whole night for the past four days!

Its driving me crazy!

No one is available to dial. Forget about my female friends.. Sure to be working and having her own relationship problem.

My good friend? His prolly still cutting vege or heating up the pan.

My bf? Most likely he cant make it to meet me either…

GAWD! Sat ill be cycling with my collegue and prolly meet him by 8 or 9 to eat and ZZ and Sunday I will have to work full day..

Y cant I spend my weekends with him!

4:17pm

Aight. Im outta here.

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24 January 2008

Today has been the 3rd night I sleep alone on my bed. The feeling of finally having a tiny bed all to myself is - good. I smiled contentedly to myself, sweeping my bed with my ‘garbage angle’ moves while my dog stared at me with raised brows.

Her eyes revealed my feelings from deep within - Bored, lonely and i cant help but repeat myself, bored.

I fumbled around my bed, searching for the slightest whiff of his existence. But to no avail. I lay on my bed, listening to the whooming sound of my fan, as though the flannels of the fan is about to fly out like a blades of a blending machine. That might be a way to die, but I’m not letting that happen to me.

Arhh..Cant help but start imagining. Yes I have nothing better to do.

Where is my pillow where I can lie on his arm the whole night?

Where is my big bolster that I can hug, snuggle and smell?

Where is my lullaby snore that drift me to sleep every other nights?

To think of it.. why never I realize that my fan is making such loud noise whenever he sleep over? Haha

“I miss you” I texted

Incoming message “I miss you too”

“I miss you” I texted again

Incoming message “im sorry dear, I will call you”

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11 Jan

.

I lost my motivation to wake up today

As if im losing something

And I tot to myself now…why is it so difficult for you to apologise

And again I also think… is this worth to be angry over this matter.

No its not anger that I feel. Its t more like it to be disappointment.

I have a double disappointment yesterday. I think that is upsetting enough already. I understand you have a lot of work.. but pls dun give me false hope. At this point of time I dun see any variable reason for you to be angry. For I felt I am in a much better position to get all upset with you.

Yes you wanted to meet me when you got the time and plan it at 7. I couldn’t make it at city hall then.. cuz im at home at only at 6.30. You said you cannot make it to make my specs and requested just for dinner.. I was a little sad that I cant get my specs done with you for the fourth time .. but im fine just a dinner after 8.30pm.. I was famished by then.. I was all dressed up.. sitting in my house waiting. . only to pick your call at 9pm telling me youre not going for dinner with me.. I got upset. I wonder y I dress up for you. .. how stupid I was to listen to you. Dress nice for you is wat you said yesterday..i did. But you didn’t comply to your promise (bring me to make specs and have dinner) I wonder y I was so stupid.

You really enjoy making me wait like a fool.

All these happen and you dun initiate to apologise.

I have to ask for an apology from you instead.

I sniffled, finding the whole incident so ridiculous.

Yes I thought to myself. Maybe I should just as well be very busy with all my own schedules. Y should I care about you? Y should I WASTE my time WAITING FOR YOU? Do I still have to carry on making a fool of myself. Revolving my life around you and you can just look for me whenever you have the time?

But y cant I do it? Ive been complaining to myself so many times already. Telling myself to make my own life more entertaining and busy, in fact MORE BUSY than you.

Y in the end I still WAIT FOR YOU?

Maybe im too childish. To get all upset and stuff about what you did. About your ego and yoru busy-ness

Maybe I should just take a break from you…

Ill talk to you again when I feel I no longer have so much feeling for you.

So that I will be numb to your busy-ness and your constant break of promises and no manners and respect towards me.

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10th January 2008

Dear,

I am sorry I did not pick up your call this morning.

I am unhappy with you.

I was struggling with myself…

How will you feel if I am busy and hung up the phone even without saying a ‘I love you’ or a polite ‘goodbye’ ? for the 6th time? I call you because I really miss you.. yet all I get is a hung up tone at the end.

How will you feel if I say I will call you later and never did as promised? I lost count on how many times it has happened…

How will you feel when you get upset with the above problems and all I ask is ‘Whats wrong with you?’ with no trace of pity, yet get agitated and annoyed with you and all the fuss you made ALL THE TIME?

Y can’t you just wrap me in your arms and ask me what is upsetting or hurting me?

Y can’t you just spend 1 second more to tell me ‘I love you’ or a ‘goodbye’ at the end of the call? That could have complete my day even if you can’t meet me that nite…

Not that I always want to make a fuss…but yet again I have to remind you..its all the small little things that woman pay attention to..

I am glad you kiss me and say ‘I love you’ when you wake up. I no longer feel upset right in the morning. It was so much better than waking up seeing you rushing off without any kiss or hug, leaving me feel all abandoned and lost with no tender loving and care…

I am very happy that I get to see you almost everyday, whenever you can make it for a after 8pm dinner with me, I gain loads of weight.. but im still happy you made your way down just to meet me…

I understand that you are very busy. I support that a man should always be hardworking. I try my best not to complain for this is what I have to learn.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Last day of the year.

Here i am, sitting in my aircon room with Jazz playing in the background after a nice shower.
Doing my manicure and pedicure, and applying my moisturisers
What can be better than all these lavish pampering for myself?
I laughed, self amused.

Those were the days when i always do the above things. Having so much control over my own priorities. Loving myself more than anything else. Have i lost it now?

After spending a week with my bf. i realise what i have been missing. - SPACE .
i wonder again. Y am i wasting so much of my youth and time trying so hard to be with him all the time, when I SHOULD be giving myself some time, doing things that i want to do and SHOULD do. This in another way also give him ample of time to do what he wants, then all will be balanced out.

Friday, December 28, 2007

mememe


Things i hope i would have done

1) committed enough to exercise
2) blading
3)Swimming
4) get a driving liscence
5) cooking
6) baking?

Been staying in my bf house this week.
Absolutly BORing to death..
but again to think if i were in my house.. i mite have even decayed..
i duno..

Very funy... how come i revolve my life around my bf?
even though my bf admit that he revolve his life around me.. like after work, he will come looking for me. and he barely got time for other things besides work and me work and me.
But at least he have more work to do than to be bored because i am still working, which will never happen to me.. cuz obviously i have more time to think of him and wait for him. i finish work at 4.20, monday to friday. while his work almost never ends.. and it stretches 7 days a week..

I need someone who is as free as me to join the club. anyone as free as me besides the tai tais???
haiz...

beware the batBoy



At this point of time.. you wonder if this is a bee or a batman.haha well..definitely batboy.

this is my bf's nephew. pretty cute huh.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

:D Best Xmas week EVER

A says - Oi y you everyday online this week?

Me says - CUZ I WORK FROM HOME for the WHOLE week plus 2 no work day

A says - ....y you so good one.. i still got to go office

Me says - LOL envious rite. You need to be. I still have alot like this coming MUAhhaa
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I read from somewhere. That ONE needs to have gratitude for the things that comes along their way. Even if it was a bad experience or incidents..It happen for a cause for a reason.

I duno y. All the years that made me who i am .. i am really grateful, for all the good and the bad.
People who have influenced me.. come and go. But once influenced, will become part of me.
In fact im really very lucky that everything is smooth sailing :)

Someone use to say.. 'Your life might not be as smooth or lucky, if you are not so ignorant of the things happening around you."

Sometimes i think it is GOOD TO BE IGNORANT cuz you get by each day not bothering whose trying to step over the other or whose planning to kill who. But of course you muz not be the one who started it off. You minus away your troubles and worries and you will end up like me, feeling like the most lucky person ever lived on earth. hahaha.

Live each day happy, give the others no trouble or sadness, and you wil be blessed with the same!

xoxox

Saturday, December 15, 2007

my sleeping dog


look at her..so shameful.. i duno y she sleeps like this..
tot dogs dun sleep like that..............

All smiles~!


Today i wake up happy.
LIke a fresh new day started.
and everything will go right from now onwards.

As usual, morning routine..my notti doggi will spy me.
Once i stir awake, roll over and try to peep at her with my eyes 4/5 open, she will start to make noise.. whimper.. scratch my bed, hinting me to take her for a stroll.
i really duno what was my body reaction..
she just know when i am awake. and when i am asleep..

i did laundry today too..(gawd.. i duno y.. his clothes is so damn difff to iron.. or maybe im rusty.. )

after everything.. i cant wait to go out shopping.
i booked someone for the day to do shopping with me.
its like ages since i do shopping NOT window shopping.
hehehe

SOmehow i have the urge to dress pretty with makeup. Maybe i was feeling very happy and bright.Seriously today was a very hapy day to me.. i still cant make out y..

Got changed and everything and called that lazy ass on the phone.
and that bum bum was still lazing on the bed. haha
but in the end. that bum bum reached earlier than me. sorry!

But i suppose we had fun. shopping for my LIP gloss was FUN.
its my most expensive lip gloss in my 25 years. lol. but the most contented one
its got the PLumping effect that make my lips look fuller and more kissable. hehe
i LOVE IT

WC was praising me again and again. saying i look very pretty today. which really ambarass me. I just duno how to react towards compliments and i felt so awkward when he purpursely stare at me. lol. Bringing him along for a shopping trip is the best. hehe, like the best shopping partner. Better than with my gfs.. beter than with my sis. hehe

I bought him a little early xmas polo t shirt.. thinking i was so good..
only to realise in the end he bought me a xmas gift tat was 3 times more ex and boy that made me feel bad.. haiz.

anyway i am in high high high spirits today! wondering what tomorrow brings...
hehehe

XOXO!

Monday, December 10, 2007

:D All smiles


Months ago i met someone
who captures my heart.
Though older than me by a whopping 9 years..
we clicked extremely well.

Capable, career minded - a character that inspires me
filled with passion and heat - a moment that i cannot live without
Talkative and funny - thats y we click so well
Knows when to tickle my toes - we argue.. but got even closer
He hugs you close, smile and say thanks and appreciates for every thing you do for him at the end of the tiring nite. - that makes your day so worth spending.

its pretty funny how your thinking got affected by the things that happen around you..
In my first relationship.. i wanted to marry.. but time was never rite..
In my 2nd relationship... i thought i am marrying this guy... but i was wrong
and this 3rd one.. i dare not even think about it anymore..
i gues.. i dun wanna get hurt.. or disapoint myself any longer...

I just want to be happy.
and yes i am. he brought me together with him overseas business trips..
we drive to kuantan with friends and have alot of fun
he brings me thailand and gets me to all the places i wanted to visit there on my birthday.
he gives me happiness.


This year.. my health plundged..
my gastro was all heywire..Bills mount to thousands..
im lucky i got my company to back me up..
I am still happy. for the life i got.
Just wish my health is back up again..
I remember reading some chinese zodiac book.. gawd.. its really true.. this year is ill health for me. haha.. since when i start to believe such thigns. hehe


Anyway You noe.. lately im into the ebay thingy..
i sell phones.. i sell xmas cards.. i sell teddy bears. hahaha
and its pretty fun. Selling and making some little Kaching!


I shall stop for today.. going to attach some pretty thai pics. hehe

ahhh im back

After the ups and downs..
I am back here again.
Had a little trouble trying to remember my own email account and password for my own blog. its a bit of a joke.. i have too many numbers and email add to remember...

Well.. its been months..
my use to be bf is no longer..
Still i have to thank him for all the time and memories he've given me.
Else i wouldnt have tasted it at all.

Its like being in a VIP cruise. so lux and comfy. and suddenly you ended up at a waterfall where everything plunges.. then you struggle to breathe.. then when you swam to the coast.. you realise youre not the only one on that stranded island. Someone picks you up and takes you on another journey again.

ahh lifes all ups and down..
now youre living all good and comfy..
does not mean youll be like this forever...
everything changes..

ahhh lets just not talk about this... Lets talk about what im up to nowadays!

Friday, May 4, 2007

gwen stefani- the sweet escape

(feat. Akon)[Gwen]
If I could escape I would but,
First of all, let me say
I must apologize for acting stinkin'treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?
If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever),
Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
[Akon]I want to get away, to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah
[Gwen]
You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground
So baby, times get a little crazy
I've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me
I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me

[CHORUS]If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?
[CHORUS]If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away, get away)Woohoo, Yeehoo (To our sweet escape)Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away)Woohoo, Yeehoo (Yeah)Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo

nickelback-far away

This time, This placeMisused, MistakesToo long, Too lateWho was I to make you waitJust one chanceJust one breathJust in case there's just one left'Cause you know,you know, you know ![CHORUS]I love youI loved you all alongAnd I miss youfar away too far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymoreOn my knees, I'll askLast chance for one last dance'Cause with you, I'd withstandAll of hell to hold your handI'd give it allI'd give for usGive anything but I won't give up'Cause you know,you know, you know ! [CHORUS]I love youI loved you all alongAnd I miss youfar away too far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymoreSo far away, far awayBeen far away for far too longSo far away, far awayBeen far away for far too longBut you know, you know, you knowI wantedI wanted you to stay'Cause I neededI need to hear you sayThat I love youI loved you all alongAnd I forgive youFor being away for far too longSo keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore,Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go.Keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore,Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go...Keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore....Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go...!BigG KisZ A BigG Fan Of Nickelback!

Paula de Anda- walk away

I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI saw you with your new girl just yesterdayAnd I feel that I must confessEven though it kills me to have to sayI'll admit that I was impressedPhysically just short of perfectionGotta commend you on your selectionThough I know I shouldn't be concernedIn the back of my mindI can't help but questionDoes she rub you feetWhen you've had a long dayOr Scratch your scalpWhen you take out your braidsDoes she know that you like tooPlay PS2 till 6 in the morningLike I doI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)I can't forget how we used to beOur life from day to dayHoping maybe you'll come backAnd though I tell myself not to be afraidTo move on but it seems I can'tBut no other man has given me attentionIt ain't the same as your affectionThough I know I should be contentIn the back of my mindI can't help but questionDoes he kiss me on the foreheadBefore we playShow up on my doorstep(with a bouquet)Does he call me in the middle of the dayIt's okayJust to say hey baby I love youLike you used toI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm Gonna Remember YouYour Gonna Remember Me)I can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk AwayRemember You(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Starting Monday

Gotten a Job with this MNC company
very happy to have gotten it.
haha

Starting on Monday!

Friday, March 30, 2007

New dressing table



99 bucks. this is wat i get. hehe

my cupboard hahahaaaaaaaa



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