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10^th January 2008

Dear,

I am sorry I did not pick up your call this morning.

I am unhappy with you.

I was struggling with myself…

How will you feel if I am busy and hung up the phone even without saying a ‘I love you’ or a polite ‘goodbye’ ? for the 6^th time? I call you because I really miss you.. yet all I get is a hung up tone at the end.

How will you feel if I say I will call you later and never did as promised? I lost count on how many times it has happened…

How will you feel when you get upset with the above problems and all I ask is ‘Whats wrong with you?’ with no trace of pity, yet get agitated and annoyed with you and all the fuss you made ALL THE TIME?

Y can’t you just wrap me in your arms and ask me what is upsetting or hurting me?

Y can’t you just spend 1 second more to tell me ‘I love you’ or a ‘goodbye’ at the end of the call? That could have complete my day even if you can’t meet me that nite…

Not that I always want to make a fuss…but yet again I have to remind you..its all the small little things that woman pay attention to..

I am glad you kiss me and say ‘I love you’ when you wake up. I no longer feel upset right in the morning. It was so much better than waking up seeing you rushing off without any kiss or hug, leaving me feel all abandoned and lost with no tender loving and care…

I am very happy that I get to see you almost everyday, whenever you can make it for a after 8pm dinner with me, I gain loads of weight.. but im still happy you made your way down just to meet me…

I understand that you are very busy. I support that a man should always be hardworking. I try my best not to complain for this is what I have to learn.

Last day of the year.

Here i am, sitting in my aircon room with Jazz playing in the background after a nice shower.
Doing my manicure and pedicure, and applying my moisturisers
What can be better than all these lavish pampering for myself?
I laughed, self amused.

Those were the days when i always do the above things. Having so much control over my own priorities. Loving myself more than anything else. Have i lost it now?

After spending a week with my bf. i realise what i have been missing. - SPACE .
i wonder again. Y am i wasting so much of my youth and time trying so hard to be with him all the time, when I SHOULD be giving myself some time, doing things that i want to do and SHOULD do. This in another way also give him ample of time to do what he wants, then all will be balanced out.

mememe

Things i hope i would have done

1) committed enough to exercise
2) blading
3)Swimming
4) get a driving liscence
5) cooking
6) baking?

Been staying in my bf house this week.
Absolutly BORing to death..
but again to think if i were in my house.. i mite have even decayed..
i duno..

Very funy... how come i revolve my life around my bf?
even though my bf admit that he revolve his life around me.. like after work, he will come looking for me. and he barely got time for other things besides work and me work and me.
But at least he have more work to do than to be bored because i am still working, which will never happen to me.. cuz obviously i have more time to think of him and wait for him. i finish work at 4.20, monday to friday. while his work almost never ends.. and it stretches 7 days a week..

I need someone who is as free as me to join the club. anyone as free as me besides the tai tais???
haiz...

beware the batBoy

At this point of time.. you wonder if this is a bee or a batman.haha well..definitely batboy.

this is my bf's nephew. pretty cute huh.

:D Best Xmas week EVER

A says - Oi y you everyday online this week?

Me says - CUZ I WORK FROM HOME for the WHOLE week plus 2 no work day

A says - ....y you so good one.. i still got to go office

Me says - LOL envious rite. You need to be. I still have alot like this coming MUAhhaa
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I read from somewhere. That ONE needs to have gratitude for the things that comes along their way. Even if it was a bad experience or incidents..It happen for a cause for a reason.

I duno y. All the years that made me who i am .. i am really grateful, for all the good and the bad.
People who have influenced me.. come and go. But once influenced, will become part of me.
In fact im really very lucky that everything is smooth sailing :)

Someone use to say.. 'Your life might not be as smooth or lucky, if you are not so ignorant of the things happening around you."

Sometimes i think it is GOOD TO BE IGNORANT cuz you get by each day not bothering whose trying to step over the other or whose planning to kill who. But of course you muz not be the one who started it off. You minus away your troubles and worries and you will end up like me, feeling like the most lucky person ever lived on earth. hahaha.

Live each day happy, give the others no trouble or sadness, and you wil be blessed with the same!

xoxox

my sleeping dog

look at her..so shameful.. i duno y she sleeps like this..
tot dogs dun sleep like that..............

All smiles~!

Today i wake up happy.
LIke a fresh new day started.
and everything will go right from now onwards.

As usual, morning routine..my notti doggi will spy me.
Once i stir awake, roll over and try to peep at her with my eyes 4/5 open, she will start to make noise.. whimper.. scratch my bed, hinting me to take her for a stroll.
i really duno what was my body reaction..
she just know when i am awake. and when i am asleep..

i did laundry today too..(gawd.. i duno y.. his clothes is so damn difff to iron.. or maybe im rusty.. )

after everything.. i cant wait to go out shopping.
i booked someone for the day to do shopping with me.
its like ages since i do shopping NOT window shopping.
hehehe

SOmehow i have the urge to dress pretty with makeup. Maybe i was feeling very happy and bright.Seriously today was a very hapy day to me.. i still cant make out y..

Got changed and everything and called that lazy ass on the phone.
and that bum bum was still lazing on the bed. haha
but in the end. that bum bum reached earlier than me. sorry!

But i suppose we had fun. shopping for my LIP gloss was FUN.
its my most expensive lip gloss in my 25 years. lol. but the most contented one
its got the PLumping effect that make my lips look fuller and more kissable. hehe
i LOVE IT

WC was praising me again and again. saying i look very pretty today. which really ambarass me. I just duno how to react towards compliments and i felt so awkward when he purpursely stare at me. lol. Bringing him along for a shopping trip is the best. hehe, like the best shopping partner. Better than with my gfs.. beter than with my sis. hehe

I bought him a little early xmas polo t shirt.. thinking i was so good..
only to realise in the end he bought me a xmas gift tat was 3 times more ex and boy that made me feel bad.. haiz.

anyway i am in high high high spirits today! wondering what tomorrow brings...
hehehe

XOXO!

:D All smiles

Months ago i met someone
who captures my heart.
Though older than me by a whopping 9 years..
we clicked extremely well.

Capable, career minded - a character that inspires me
filled with passion and heat - a moment that i cannot live without
Talkative and funny - thats y we click so well
Knows when to tickle my toes - we argue.. but got even closer
He hugs you close, smile and say thanks and appreciates for every thing you do for him at the end of the tiring nite. - that makes your day so worth spending.

its pretty funny how your thinking got affected by the things that happen around you..
In my first relationship.. i wanted to marry.. but time was never rite..
In my 2nd relationship... i thought i am marrying this guy... but i was wrong
and this 3rd one.. i dare not even think about it anymore..
i gues.. i dun wanna get hurt.. or disapoint myself any longer...

I just want to be happy.
and yes i am. he brought me together with him overseas business trips..
we drive to kuantan with friends and have alot of fun
he brings me thailand and gets me to all the places i wanted to visit there on my birthday.
he gives me happiness.


This year.. my health plundged..
my gastro was all heywire..Bills mount to thousands..
im lucky i got my company to back me up..
I am still happy. for the life i got.
Just wish my health is back up again..
I remember reading some chinese zodiac book.. gawd.. its really true.. this year is ill health for me. haha.. since when i start to believe such thigns. hehe


Anyway You noe.. lately im into the ebay thingy..
i sell phones.. i sell xmas cards.. i sell teddy bears. hahaha
and its pretty fun. Selling and making some little Kaching!


I shall stop for today.. going to attach some pretty thai pics. hehe

ahhh im back

After the ups and downs..
I am back here again.
Had a little trouble trying to remember my own email account and password for my own blog. its a bit of a joke.. i have too many numbers and email add to remember...

Well.. its been months..
my use to be bf is no longer..
Still i have to thank him for all the time and memories he've given me.
Else i wouldnt have tasted it at all.

Its like being in a VIP cruise. so lux and comfy. and suddenly you ended up at a waterfall where everything plunges.. then you struggle to breathe.. then when you swam to the coast.. you realise youre not the only one on that stranded island. Someone picks you up and takes you on another journey again.

ahh lifes all ups and down..
now youre living all good and comfy..
does not mean youll be like this forever...
everything changes..

ahhh lets just not talk about this... Lets talk about what im up to nowadays!

gwen stefani- the sweet escape

(feat. Akon)[Gwen]
If I could escape I would but,
First of all, let me say
I must apologize for acting stinkin'treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?
If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever),
Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
[Akon]I want to get away, to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah
[Gwen]
You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground
So baby, times get a little crazy
I've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me
I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me

[CHORUS]If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?
[CHORUS]If I could escape, and recreate a place that's my own world
and I could be your favourite girl(forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, And tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away, get away)Woohoo, Yeehoo (To our sweet escape)Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away)Woohoo, Yeehoo (Yeah)Woohoo, YeehooWoohoo, Yeehoo

nickelback-far away

This time, This placeMisused, MistakesToo long, Too lateWho was I to make you waitJust one chanceJust one breathJust in case there's just one left'Cause you know,you know, you know ![CHORUS]I love youI loved you all alongAnd I miss youfar away too far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymoreOn my knees, I'll askLast chance for one last dance'Cause with you, I'd withstandAll of hell to hold your handI'd give it allI'd give for usGive anything but I won't give up'Cause you know,you know, you know ! [CHORUS]I love youI loved you all alongAnd I miss youfar away too far too longI keep dreaming you'll be with meand you'll never goStop breathing if I don't see you anymoreSo far away, far awayBeen far away for far too longSo far away, far awayBeen far away for far too longBut you know, you know, you knowI wantedI wanted you to stay'Cause I neededI need to hear you sayThat I love youI loved you all alongAnd I forgive youFor being away for far too longSo keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore,Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go.Keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore,Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go...Keep breathing'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore....Believe it,Hold on to me and never let me go...!BigG KisZ A BigG Fan Of Nickelback!

Paula de Anda- walk away

I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember meI saw you with your new girl just yesterdayAnd I feel that I must confessEven though it kills me to have to sayI'll admit that I was impressedPhysically just short of perfectionGotta commend you on your selectionThough I know I shouldn't be concernedIn the back of my mindI can't help but questionDoes she rub you feetWhen you've had a long dayOr Scratch your scalpWhen you take out your braidsDoes she know that you like tooPlay PS2 till 6 in the morningLike I doI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)I can't forget how we used to beOur life from day to dayHoping maybe you'll come backAnd though I tell myself not to be afraidTo move on but it seems I can'tBut no other man has given me attentionIt ain't the same as your affectionThough I know I should be contentIn the back of my mindI can't help but questionDoes he kiss me on the foreheadBefore we playShow up on my doorstep(with a bouquet)Does he call me in the middle of the dayIt's okayJust to say hey baby I love youLike you used toI can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk Away(I'm Gonna Remember YouYour Gonna Remember Me)I can't explain this feelingI think about it everydayAnd even though we've moved onIt gets so hard to walk away(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)Walk Away, Walk AwayRemember You(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)(I'm gonna remember youYou're gonna remember me)

Starting Monday

Gotten a Job with this MNC company
very happy to have gotten it.
haha

Starting on Monday!

New dressing table

99 bucks. this is wat i get. hehe

my cupboard hahahaaaaaaaa

Before~

AftER

lily allen - Smile

When you first left me I was wanting more

But you were fucking that girl next door,

what ja do that for

When you first left me

I didn't know what to say

I never been on my own that way,

just sat by myself all dayI was so lost back then

But with a little help from my friends

I found a light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phone

So you can have a little whine and a moan

And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile

At worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back

And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack

I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself

See you messed up my mental health

I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then

But with a little help from my friends

I found a light in the tunnel at the end

Now you're calling me up on the phoneSo you can have a little whine and a moan

And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile

At worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalala

At first when I see you cry,yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile

At worst I feel bad for a while,but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Things to do

1) Starhub Bills
2) Roller blade
3) Go visit the Kelong!
4) Visit the Noah Arks Farm!
5) Changing of CA's mobile plan
6) Try out the peninsular carpark. Heard its kewl
7) Can i have some curry Crab?
8) wat about Day day Seatmboat with the pub girl?
9) Sakura sushi @ east coast?
10) Need my Dog Shampooo....shes getting stinky!! (PS i just shaved her again!!)
11) East COast steam boat?
12) KtV
13) West coast Doggie Run (dun forget to free the turtles!
14) Can you help me to remove the white elephant aircon?? or can you fix it? plus i need some curtains... something to make my room nice nice heheheeee
15) Chevrons€ anyone?
16) I need my new cabinet from IKEA $99 Three drawers
17) East coast hawker? yum yum
18) Fix the HD ext.. i forgot what the hell this is
19) Need my XP works..
20) Upgrade Laptop to Vista
21) BAK KUA mmmmmm yumy
22) Temple anyone?
23) Dog gate
24) Cheong cheong cheong?
25) what color this time for my room?
26) GET MONEY BACK FROM THE !@$% heheh

my roommy

Before and after of my room. lol

Used to look like such a store room!

Doctor day

Went visiting the doctor.
gotten my monthly medication.
Amount of time taken?
approx four hours
and the title belongs to my dear neighbourhood clinic - Jurong polyclinic

Like most people say - " by they time it is my turn.. i have already turned well"

Shagadday

woke in the morning

brought that punk to take bus to interchange to have my doggie membership made.

So off fly that 88 bucks but i got back three bottles of dermatrix for free.

Watever

Anyway it is said to improve skin.. so we have to see one month later ya.

Den we took bus to grandma place.

Hot weather..

sweat trickling..

that kid look like he just came out of the swimming pool.

so we reached.. and i ended up sitting rite beside grandma

'lighting the path' for her, from morning.. till 7

den we start all the ritual..

follow by the burning of the house.

so Conclusion?

TIRING....

my dog crosses her legs .. but still expose her.. **** lol